When I started writing my previous book in 2013, Nuclear Energy – Peaceful Ways to Serve Humanity, it was indeed an intentional enterprise:
- The scope of the book was clear in my mind;
- I had no illusions about the magnitude of the efforts it would consume;
- I was relatively young and energetic; and
- I had my wife, Lynda, with me as a cheerleader to support me for my ambitious commitment.
Whereas:
- The book I just started writing recently wasn’t intentional;
- I had no clue about the scope of the book;
- I didn’t know what it would take to make it happen;
- I was ten years older and miserable; and
- My wife wasn’t around anymore to continue to inspire me by cheering, chanting and dancing around to support me morally or otherwise.
Here it goes.
We were living graciously in a so called independent living retirement community which’s a synonym for “God’s Waiting Room” where we all go when we get old just to wait for our turn to die. Nevertheless, we both were relatively happy as we had no major illnesses to stop us from enjoying each other’s company day in and day out but Lynda passed away in January leaving me all alone in a lonely milieu just to continue to wait for my turn to die alone.
She was my cherished friend.
In spite of unremitting support from our son, Adam, who is my rock, I never stopped being miserable for a while. Finally, when I just started going to the dining room for my meals and to the activity room for playing bridge and bingo, there was a COVID outbreak in the building in the month of February and we all were quarantined for 12 days.
I didn’t know how to deal with the situation until I started writing a story about us without any intention, aspiration or terminus.
It turned out to be uplifting, not to mention a source of inspiration and contentment for me to deal with my grief.
Of course, it’s a one-sided story which could very well be biased, prejudiced, and even discriminatory as Lynda’s not around to confirm the legitimacy of the events included in this story and I could be guilty as charged.
